The Perfect Daughter

I'm sorry I'm not
The perfect daughter,
I'm sorry I don't
Follow you around aimlessly
Like I'm your little
Shadow, and I'm sorry
I don't see the
World through your
Jaded eyes

I'm sorry I have
A big mouth, I'm
Sorry thar I talk
Back, and I'm sorry
I have my own mind
But most of all
I'm sorry you feel
So cheated by the
World we live in

What I don't understand
Is why I feel
The need to apologize
For simply being myself
I try so hard
To get you to
Understand me when I
Talk to you about
How you make me
Feel, And I feel
So invalidated when you
Tell me that these
Feelings are not my
Own

You say that's not
My daughter, you say
That people are talking
Through me and I
Have been brainwashed
By the people who
See me for who I
Really am

Mom, I wish you
Knew how badly you
Hurt me with words
Like that, I wish
You could see how
Badly your actions affect
The people around you

The fact of the
Matter is, you don't
Really know me or
Who I want to
Be in the world
I've come to realize
That apologizing for everything
That has gone wrong
In your life
Is pointless because you
Will never hear me

You will never take
Responsibility for your actions
And you will continue
To manipulate and self-medicate
Just to make yourself feel
a little bit better

You will never try
To get better or
To do better so,
I am going to
Stop apologizing, I'm ging
To stop waiting for
You to change, I
Know I cannot force
You to do something
And you can't force
To be someone that
I will never be

I will never be
The perfect daughter in
Your eyes, I will
Never be your little
Shadow, and I will
No longer apologize for
Simply being myself